Taking a moment to breath in the changing winds

So, another year passes, and I am celebrating my born-date again tomorrow (Sept 27th). Thinking through what has transpired over the last year....from work to relationships, to fun, to the tears and low moments, to self evaluation, to dreams and just blank moments.

Having discovered a lot about myself after being pried out of my comfort zone, from where I had for years circled about, I cannot lie that I have fully adjusted yet. However, I have learnt to take it in stride and accept that I do not have answers to everything, and I cannot carry the weight of the world because I got two hands only.

Oh, don't I admire people who are able to wake up one day after going through a messy situation and resolve to just forget it and move on as if nothing happened. Why can I not do that? My sister said, it is because apparently, some people like me tend to want to trend so carefully, feeling wooiee for everybody else and forgetting to feel wooiee for myself. I ain't no saint though and I have done my share of terrible things.

So here is a tribute to the people I have hurt that past year. I have not yet come up with a way in which I can take that away. However, I still have a tug in my heart every time I think of you, and I smile once in while when some memories come flooding back. Like when I would pick up my camera and just flick away, then we would sit and review the photos that captured the bare soul, so prominently evident in your eyes and body. I hope I have made it easier to make you still talk to me and have a laugh with me before the awkwardness sets in and we have to say our goodbyes till the next conversation. It is the least I could do.

And for the new friends and loved one that I have met over the past year, foregoing my weaknesses and flaws to embrace me as I am, to love me and stand by me...to let go when my claws come out and am a pain in the ass for at times, I thank you.

Here's to another year of better things to come!